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Elizabeth_Ruth
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Country: China
Metro: Beijing
Gender: Female
Interests: Hong Kong, video games, sports, tv, poetry, reading, art, music, talking, the ocean, friends, dancing, eating, scrapbooks, babies, sneaking, swimming, tanning, summer, fall, spring, sunshine, beauty, horses, makeup, photography, movies, games, pranks, blaahhhh
Expertise: whipping things out of my ass, procrastinating
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Member Since:
4/11/2003
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| when people said it
when people sighed
when people wrote about it
when people cried
i never fully understood
i never really knew
i never got
that life could be so hard without you
a you that seemed so perfect
a you that seemed so true
a you that was all i wanted
a you i never really knew
but life brought you along
a life made me feel
life made me try it
life made me fall and reel
but i didn't expect
i didn't believe
that life could change so quickly
and i'd be left to bleed
alone once again
without you there
it was a mere moment
and our time ended here | | |
| Twisting and churning
my stomach aches
Tumbling and whirling
my entire world shakes
Tripping and sliding
I fell for you
Diving and swimming
I dream of you
Emptiness and boredom
my life without you
Thoughts and daydreams
dedicated to you
Confused and unsure
I am in your company
Calm and patient
you are in mine
Sunshine and happiness
you gift wrap for me
Sarcasm and laughter
I give in return
Of you I should be wary
our worlds should never join
Interest and desire
cause my heart to ache
Being without you
causes it to break
Aching and alone
I beg for you
Bruised and broken
I crawl to you
Wrecking and sobbing
I cling to you
Kind and loving
you pull me closer
Dying inside
I push you away
Hurt and confused
you let me go
Memories of bliss
you have become
Scars to diss
I have become
Peace and comfort
are far from me
Shattered and lost
my heart is
Regretful on my part
I am not
Regretful on yours
I am
And when I lay in my bed
and when I rise sleepless
I tell myself this
that with me gone
I gave you up and let you go on
to better things you well deserve
And that you find your all you wished to be
Because I know you can
Deteriorating
I do so every moment
Dead
I hope to be soon
Happy
I was only in your sunshine
~Elizabeth R~ | | |
| I will put you in a vase
so that you may blossom in beauty for all to admire
I will wrap you in a jacket
so that the warmth around you is from me
I will put a ring upon your finger
so that others will know to whom you belong
I will place my name at the end of yours
so that you may not forget to whom you belong
I will place you in a house
so that you may never escape me
I will place things in your hands
so that you will never desire to
I will keep you busy with children
so that you will have no time to regret
I will keep a mistress
so that you may never be overwhelmed with me
I will travel the world
so that you may have another postcard from me
I will let you join the country club
so that you may perhaps stay in shape
I will let you run charities
so that others may know just how good we are
I will remain at work
so that you can take our son to orientation
I will remain young
so that you may continually strive to as well
I will forget you
so that you won’t have to even speak
I will completely fail to watch you disappear before me
so that you may not worry if I’m disappointed
I will put you in a box
so that I may bury you deep with all my secrets
I will place you in the family graveyard
so that people will know where you came from
I will cry at your funeral
so that everyone will know you were loved
I will pack away your things
so that you need not haunt me
I will burn your journals and letters
so that your ideals may not be passed on
I will tell stories to the grandchildren
so that they will never know the true you
I will erase your entirely
so that I will never know what I truly missed
~Elizabeth R~ | | |
| burning
fire
it chokes the last from me
till nothing remains
I cough the last breathe within me
and fall in despair
the walls close in
and I am
reduced to empty space
no matter
as though I had never exist
I fly on the wind
and kiss the sun
my life now
a part of mist
a mere reflection in your eye
I am with you
yet you will never see
with those two eyes
the fact of this
for I am
the soft tingle down your neck
the faint breeze upon your face
I tell you always
that I love you
you feel it
you hear it
but you do not know
I try to tell you
in so many ways
but you just fall lower
I tell you not to dispair
for this is only a path all must take
and I will always be saying
that I love you | | |
| can't control it
might as well enjoy the ride
can't fight it
might as well let go
can't hide it
might as well say it
can't get over it
might as well love it
~Elizabeth R~ | | |
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